Lovely Diaspora

by Séimí

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1.	Boston 04:03	lyrics	buy track
I have never been a patriot In fact I hate this place Never understood the borderlines That divide and separate us from ourselves But there was a time I fought Against the sea I stood my ground Not for the land or its identity But just for the love I'd found in you But when I thought I'd lost you On that Winter's afternoon I'm glad I turned around And knocked again And it's sad you never saw the lights Of Boston, Massachusettes But you're still as free to go As you were then Sure, there isn't quite the sunshine here That you'd find in the States But I'll find a way to light your day While we still have daffodils and movie dates Now whenever I hear Boston I think of all the things we'll do And I know that even if you'd gone I'd sell everything to catch that plane with you Oh, my love There's never been a time When I've been happier
2.	Love #1 00:44	lyrics	buy track
What makes one fall in love with a person? Is a flickering smile A secret summit reached Attended by two The most brief of encounters A transient piece of sublime knowing A footprint in your mind's eye? Is that how love starts - Or is it an arm round a shoulder Two soldiers Finding each other in the darkness Uniforms obscured Mutual compression on unfamiliar wounds Trusting beyond hope or reservation?
3.	Find Me 02:47	lyrics	buy track
We're just trading car doors As the haze rolls in All these faces make me sick Tell me who they are again We've been chasing our own ghosts Just to disappear We've been washed up coast to coast Just to find our way back here Find me You have taught me many things One I know is true Anyone will waste my life If I don't spend it with you We're just trading car doors As the cold sets in All this exile makes me sick Tell me who we are again
4.	Love #2 00:46	lyrics	buy track
How does love develop? Does it arrive softly in the night Like waking as a child To the gentle purr of a rumbling engine The blurry glow outside And your favourite voice whispering "We're here'? Or is it a procession An anything-goes carnivale Of proud fanfares And explosion of hues and textures And pure unadulterated Skipping through streets And shouting from rooftops?
5.	Through Our Days 06:20	lyrics	buy track
When you wake up in our bed Regardless of the type of life we've led Will you feel strong? Will you belong with me? Wherever we may lay our heads Know that I would never leave unsaid The ways you made Me unafraid to live Don't spare me my soul As long as you yearn for me Permit me to hold you for eternity And we will be at peace Now our eyes are growing dim And I fear the road ahead is grim But knowing you Will see me through our days
6.	Love #3 00:49	lyrics	buy track
Is does love prosper? Is it a shared stigmata A nailing of true colours to the mast On a ship nowhere-bound Movements plotted By tactile, perfect touch Between two proud captains Negotiating the depths With and of each other? Or is it rather more mundane and real Flouting the lonely rules Of life's marathon And running it together At moments carrying And others being carried Flaws rendered irrelevant Or beautiful Through simple solidarity?
7.	Of You 02:47	lyrics	buy track
I've got troubles I've got a way to make you see I'm just longing for the time When I can truly be A safe rite of passage Down your river to your sea I'm in the current of you, love I've fought on planets Of my own imaginings And I've been through bellies Of a hundred deadly things But somehow you sooth away the shadows When you sing I'm in the melody of you, love I'm cutting through the storm I'm mapping out my way to you I'm soaked to the bone But you are warm I've an inkling you've been sent From somewhere far away I'm sure it's much better there But I hope that you'll stay To guide me through Winter times When Summer's gone astray I'm in the sunlight of you, love I'm in the moonlight with you, love I'm in the light of you
8.	Love #4 00:48	lyrics	buy track
How does love falter? Is it a hairline fracture Spreading unnoticed Through the integrity of the house You built together Leaving facade untouched Until one day The slightest pressure Brings roof and walls crumbling down To reveal the creep of decay? Or is it a burning folie à deux A madness shared by two Left alight for just too long Flickering in the face of such graceless love Airless Suffocating?
9.	Redemption 04:00	lyrics	buy track
It seems you're incapable Of making anything simple The very defeats you condemn Are the ones you prolong Are you aware That the time you've been given Is gold dust? And are you aware It's been slipping away All along? You trust me And I find ways to burn it down You must be By now Content to let me drown Is there a morning You don't spend obsessing your futures Is there a night when You don't go to bed with the past Is there a day That you don't beg your mind for redemption How many more years Do you think her patience will last? Why do you suffer me? There are plenty easier Why do you offer me Such care I'm undeserving of?
10.	Trialogue 02:57	lyrics	buy track
You infiltrator I welcomed you You great stagnator You deserted me One frosted kiss and a revelation later And my world was prised open You came like a perpetrator in the daytime No reason or rhyme But treason and crime Soon to turn traitor You hollowed out a seismic cleft in my otherwise wise and deft Picturesque monotony Then spat on me Albeit by proxy But it hurt no less Poxy, thoughtless disinterest Spasmodically interspersed With bodily fluidity Humidity, viscidity, torridity Coursing, breaking down rigidity Sensing my lucidity And sleepwalking senseless through hallways of my heart Taking liberty with my dignity Since you meant to me More than that symbol heart with infinity Given we had time to lose I was emboldened by our victory She was all avidity, avidity, avid to see This cultivate organically Just naturally No catch Just relief and reprieve and belief and believe me I was keen to be the catalyst But you began to slip And twist Relapse Into self-fulfilling prophecy And you pissed upon my sympathy You pissed upon my empathy You pissed upon our sanctity And it drove me mad It became that our proximity Engendered organicity I became complicit in Giving spin to every bulletin I felt within And biting I started wasting all my keratin On hours of trusting Lusting Imagining thrusting And trusting And trusting And she tried to save you With sex and drugs and vegan bacon rolls And our roles dripped away Into the gutter Minutes into every outreach I would start and stop and stutter Feel how my arms would Frustrated Tire and fall And feel how my love Would give way To hollow Breakdown Of talk That was disconnect In seconds My philosophy and trust Faded from meaning For I could not Give love To one who Abstained from its touch And I mourned And I cried And I raged For the loss of a tender and lovely thing That will never be
11.	Lilies and Parsley 06:23	lyrics	buy track
When I pine It's not for you As you are No We were kind To ourselves Once upon A time Like the plates of the earth Imperceptibly shifting We're redefining our worth And inextricably drifting I know we find it hard to be alone Has it ever been easy? But show yourself the love that I've been shown Be free
12.	Love #5 00:52	lyrics	buy track
How does love fade? Does familiarity begin to breed contempt Yet absence make the days grow longer Teeth grit Wings clip An unstoppable force Meeting an immovable object Locked in an impasse of such cacophony That trust and nurture Become all but distant murmurs? Or does it step down with dignity Acknowledging its time Smiling fondly on its youth And With a heavy heart Say 'fare well'?
13.	Iridescent 04:44	lyrics	buy track
Let's take a walk Until our legs are sore Down through the streets Until we hit the shore Let's take a climb I'll race you to the peak You'll prop me up When I am feeling weak Just to share Just to share this view with you Just to share with you Let's take a space And fill it with our minds Make it adorned With all that we can find Let's make a bed And tangle in its depths And you'll make me trust There is always something left Just to share Just to share this home with you Just to share with you Let's have a talk About the years to come I still belong To all the things we've done I'll hold you now But some things aren't enough And you'll understand It is alright not to love Just to share Just to share this life with you Just to share with you Just to share Just to share myself with you Just to share with you

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This is a story, to be listened to from beginning to end.

If you'd like to support my music but can't afford the album, please consider making a smaller donation via PayPal (seimirowan@gmail.com).

Thank you -

To all the wonderful people who have supported my music so far - you gave me the confidence to build something of my own.

To my family, whose loving support I can never truly repay - without you, I could not have put these tracks down.

To my mum in particular, the wisest soul I am likely ever to meet, whose music is by far my greatest influence. (Holly Tomás - look her up).

And to you, you for whom I wrote - no words could be more meaningful than the ones I have recorded here, so I will simply thank you for inspiring them.

© Bielside Records

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released April 24, 2018

All lyrics, music, recording and production by Séimí Rowan, with the exception of samples in 'Love #1-#5' from the Adagietto of Mahler's 5th.

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Séimí Edinburgh, UK

Séimí writes songs for liberation, truth and humility. They want to empower people to be empathic, to think critically and to challenge the systems of domination that keep us hidden from our true selves.